Secret maps

We woke very early in Cambridge and had breakfast at a Pret a Manger in probably the fanciest building we’d ever encountered for this establishment. A man was seated nearby waiting for his friend, while a man at another table drolly asked him if he intended to attend the parade to celebrate the Battler of Agincourt’s 575th anniversary. The Battle of Agincourt was one of few battles won by the British in the 100 Years’ War with France. The man waiting for his friend responded he would not attend the fictional parade; rather he would celebrate later with a bottle of wine. “Not French wine, I hope,” quipped the historical savant.

My husband had won the aBode shower lottery for the second day running. Warm for him, lukewarm for me. We headed for hopefully greener pastures with a fairly uneventful trip from Canterbury West to Charing Cross. The train had been nearly empty leaving Canterbury but became jam-packed, stop by stop, by the time we reached London. We had been wondering how on earth the Southeastern train system is able to run with any form of profitability considering how empty almost every train we’d been on over four days had been. It appears to work similar to Christmas for retailers. All the money must be made on trains as they approach stops close to London.

By the time we arrived in London, it was raining again, but our hotel was reasonably close by way of a funny alley. Our new hotel in London, The Grand at Trafalgar Square, met the new financial criteria to which my husband and I agreed before the trip. They weren’t ready to check us in, but checked our luggage and showed us to a nice lounge where we could regroup and make a latte. The hotel seemed pretty fancy for our new price point.

We were intending to meet a friend later in the day who was coming into London from California with her adult children. Their original flight had been cancelled and their new flight would be later. So we bought tickets for the Secret Maps exhibit at the British Library to stay occupied. We’ve been to the British Library twice in the past, once for the Treasures exhibit, years ago, and once for the Medieval Women exhibit earlier this year. The British Library has super interesting documents to start with, and they pull together such interesting narrative and themes for their exhibits.

This exhibit about secret maps was the best I’ve seen there. It just never occurred to me how interesting the history of maps is and how they were used–to share information as well as to obscure, deflect, and mislead to maintain an upper hand–commercially, politically, in warfare. Also, how many different kinds of maps there have been to be used for these purposes, including maps of land masses, trade routes, the heavens, escape routes, war equipment and assets. And how maps were shared with the right people.

After viewing the exhibit, we checked into our hotel, learning that The Grand is part of the Club Quarters chain. We’ve only stayed at this chain once on one of our trips many years ago. There’s a lot of work and lounge space in the hotel and it’s quite fancy. I noted that this would have been a good hotel for the times I worked from London last year. In contrast, the rooms are pretty basic and small. But, hey, hot water both days we need it. A win.

Speaking of maps used for deception, it’s long been a thing that Mikel Arteta keeps things close to the vest in his press conferences before a match. He tells the truth and nothing but the truth, but with regard to injuries, it’s often not the whole truth. There is often someone who came off the last match limping, of whom Arteta will truthfully say in his next press conference before a match whether the player has been in practice that week. But often he’ll say they’ll evaluate them on match day and see how things stand. Then that player may show up as a starter, or as a sub, or we’ll find out after the match he’ll have surgery tomorrow and will be out for at least three months.

Gabriel Magalhaes, big Gabi, came off in the match against Atletico Madrid with about 20 minutes left to play and it looked like something was not quite right with him. Arteta had said in his pre-match press conference for Crystal Palace that he was unsure whether Gabi would play against Crystal Palace. “Let’s see how he evolves,” he said. Arsenal is having a wonderful defensive season and a lot of the reason has been the play of Big Gabi. His partnership with William Saliba is considered among the best in the Premier League. And obviously, he’s been important for delivering goals from set plays. Either he heads it in himself or places where someone else can finish up the job.

But Arsenal’s defense is not only good because of Gabriel and Saliba; the whole team contributes to Arsenal’s overall stability. Arsenal has held every team goalless since September 28, yes, but teams hadn’t even been able to register a shot on target. And we’ve seen some great play from the person who can deputize Big Gabi, Christhian Mosquera. So losing Big Gabi would not be ideal, but it’s not a horrible situation either.

Arteta also used his press conference to encourage fans to bring the noise and spirit. “Play the game with us,” he requested. “If we’re going to win the league, everybody has to turn up.”

On that backdrop we arrived at the stadium the next day having spent a morning walking in the Tower Hill area and having had a nice lunch. We got to the stadium a bit late but still made time to walk through the Armoury and, as has lately been our habit, buying nothing. My husband and I were sitting apart from each other but both in the west stands. He was high up near the half way line; I was in Club near the North end. My seats were just about even with the D at the top of the penalty box. We had had a pretty easy time getting tickets for this match, none of the usual drama and not very many clicks.

I arrived at my seat with very little time to spare before the teams came out of the tunnel. There was something odd about my section that made it a little less straightforward to access from any direction and it took me some time to find the right passages. My section had quite a few human season ticket holders in it, and I’ve found that those areas of Club are almost as much fun as being in other parts of the stadium. Lots of spirit.

The whole stadium seemed to be taking Arteta’s request to heart. A lively atmosphere considering the opponent was Crystal Palace. Technically a derby, but usually one without as much of the usual rancor. This even though Crystal Palace managed to produce a tie in our last match at The Emirates.

One possible point of drama was that Eberechi Eze came to us from Crystal Palace. As I recall, he scored one of the goals in the match at the Emirates last year. The woman to the left of me wondered aloud whether Eze would celebrate if he scored a goal against Crystal Palace. There is some nonsense where players who score against their former team will not celebrate so as to be kind to their former club. To date, the Crystal Place fans have been notably classy about losing Eze to Arsenal. He did a lot for them. They appreciate that. Eze has played pretty well for Arsenal but has only scored one goal this season, in the Carabou cup. It seemed we probably would not find out the answer to that question on the day.

In contrast, Declan Rice came to Arsenal from West Ham under similar circumstances but while producing £105 million in revenue for his former club. Money that could be used to strengthen the West Ham team beyond replacing this one player. But Declan Rice gets tortured when he plays against West Ham. They do not forgive him at all. Rice didn’t score against West Ham in his first season with Arsenal. He did manage to score against them in early October at the Emirates. And while he did not celebrate the goal he scored right in front of the visiting fans, he appeared to make eye contact. A bit of a glare, I felt.

An example of a player who did celebrate against his former team: Arsenal had a player named Emmanuel Adebayor from 2006 to 2009, when he was sold to Manchester City. The first time Arsenal faced Man City at Man City’s stadium, Adebayor scored a goal against Arsenal and then ran the whole length of the pitch to celebrate in front of the Arsenal fans, who rioted. I’m sure he was receiving a ton of schtick from the Arsenal fans before that decision. The process of losing players was so painful at that time. You felt so insulted when someone chose to leave.

I was so late to my seat I didn’t have time to check out the line-up. As soon as the players came out of the tunnel, there was Big Gabi, clearly in the starting line-up. Quite a relief. And Eze, of course.

All the usual ceremony took place. Good old Arsenal (blah), North London forever (yay) and finally the kick-off.

Many times I’ve been asked why I fell in love with Arsenal. Although I fell in love well in advance of the Premier League being picked up by NBC sports in 2013, I remember a great article in the sporting press in conjunction with the rollout campaign for NBC about how, now that everyone would be able to watch every match, someone could go about selecting a team to support. It was described as being akin to the sorting hat in Harry Potter. Just watch the soccer and a team will be magically chosen for you.

I was watching soccer with my kids and husband on Fox soccer channel well before that and had that sorting hat experience after watching Arsenal a few times. When I try to verbalize why Arsenal was chosen, I say I’m a sucker for beautiful, flowing soccer. Arsene Wenger, Arsenal’s manager at the time, also appeared to have a weakness for that beauty. His teams were stacked with players with technical ability. People who could complete the beautiful pass, deception with the ball, a tricky dribble, a back heal, a lovely, arcing shot. But Arsenal was also naive in spirit and porous in defense. The Arsenal of old could also not break down a low block, but it was very susceptible to counterattacks.

But now, Arsenal is not that. This is not really a pretty team. So why has the sorting hat not rethought my options?

I’ve heard it said that the reason is Arsenal fans are hypocritical. Speaking only for me, I think I’ve become more mature as an appreciator of the sport. Not just the overtly pretty things, but things that are less obvious. I have learned that what I want and what Mikel Arteta wants are often two different things. And when someone knows more than you and sees things you never could and whose job hangs in the balance, it may make sense to try to respect that. And try to learn what that person is attempting to achieve. What is the objective when working from the back? What is the objective of the horseshoe of death (as we call it when Arsenal’s defenders are passing from right to left and back to right)? Why has Arteta selected this player in this situation and a different player in another situation? What are the different ways Arsenal attacks a set piece? I’ve learned to appreciate winning a duel, laying down a great tackle, working in concert to ensure our defensive team is the last line of defense and not the first line. And, of course, all the different ways to produce a deceptive set piece.

And when I approach a match with not just excitement, but also curiosity, a match that might have felt tedious to me feels interesting and like a learning experience. The Crystal Palace match, especially in the first half, was probably the poster child for a match I would have formerly found tedious, but at this time found fascinating. And with regard to my fellow fans at the stadium, I would say almost every time they might be starting to feel frustrated, they reacted by trying to lift up the team with chanting. Arteta’s request had clearly been heard.

Crystal Palace of course deployed a low block and Arsenal of course struggled to unlock it. I can only remember one shot on goal. And when Arsenal did unlock it, guess how?

Set piece again, olé olé. One of the Crystal Palace’s players briefly lost the plot near the end of the first half and fouled Saka, giving up a free kick, which Declan Rice took. At least 20,000 fans in the stadium picked up their phones and started taking video, including the man to my right. The ball Declan kicked naturally came to Big Gabi, who was facing Declan and away from the goal and who headed it back toward the edge of the penalty area. Eze came running in and struck the ball in a very odd way. Since the match, I’ve heard the kick he made referred to as a karate kick, a scissor kick, a hitch kick, a forward bicycle kick, and probably a few other things.

Whatever. It rocketed into the net.

Answer to the question posed at the top of the match by my seat mate: Eze did not really celebrate. He kind of also did not not celebrate.

We celebrated enough to make up for whatever it was he was doing.

At halftime I went to concessions and stood in a long line of people getting beer and ultimately picked up a cup of tea. One of the beers Arsenal is now serving at the stadium is Guinness. It takes a long time to pour a Guinness–I wonder if they regret that? The lady next to me complained fiercely to me about the inefficiency of the process of serving beer. Beer is available at no added charge to those in Club. Ergo, a lot of people want one. I appreciated her decision to read me into her frustration and nodded sympathetically, even though my empathy was not really piqued.

In the second half, Arsenal had a lot of chances right in front of me, just no success scoring. Hitting the bar, goal keeper saves, a lot of excitement, not much payout. Some set pieces that did not produce a goal.

Arsenal’s former player Eddie Nketiah was introduced late in the match to the applause of both home and away fans. Eze was withdrawn about 5 minutes from the end of normal time to the applause both home and away fans.

Toward the end, everyone seemed so tired and Crystal Palace did make some progress challenging toward the goal. I think Arteta was very willing to trust our defensive stability and not worry so much about scoring again. As much as Arteta does not worry. Whatever we are seeing on the field and however we might try to understand and appreciate it, there appears to always be something more he is looking for. I guess we are all growing up together but he’s working on it well ahead of most of us.

The match ended 1-0. The only shot registered by statisticians as being “on target” against Arsenal was this weird thing from Eddie Nketiah that David Raya easily caught. Arsenal’s six matches in October ended with no goals scored against it and only one shot taken by an opponent–Eddie Nketiah’s–being ruled “on target.”

My husband and I normally meet after the match at the Arsene Wenger statue. I got confused with the unusual set-up of my section and headed the wrong way out of the stadium. It took me forever to figure out my mistake. So long, and with crowds so thick. it just made sense to keep walking. It was raining again and when I arrived my husband was waiting under building near the statue.

We walked in the rain back to Arsenal station, 3 points in our raincoat pockets and plans for a nice dinner with our California friends.

Special Aura

Earlier in the week before we traveled to London, I read a piece in The Athletic about a footballer named Jason Kaminsky, who died at age 31 in 2005. Jason Kaminsky had been a promising youth player for Nottingham Forest who made his professional debut at 18 as a sub against Luton Town in April 1992. He had been nurtured by Manager Brian Clough and, at the time he made his appearance, had been expected by many of his former teammates to have a long and successful career. He’d been a top scorer in the youth league and was physically big and strong, with a big personality to match. He had a decent afternoon that April day, setting up a goal for Teddy Sheringham that was ultimately disallowed for being offside.

Source: The Athletic, 8/19/2025

However, Clough was near the end of his appointment at Nottingham Forest, retiring in the next season, an embattled one in which Nottingham Forest were ultimately relegated from the league. Jason Kaminsky did not play professionally again, that season or ever. A new manager, Frank Clark, brought in an excellent new striker, relegating Kaminsky to fifth choice. His contract was terminated.

For some players, that might be the beginning of seeking new pastures, but if Kaminsky did seek new pastures he was not welcomed to or for other reasons did not graze there. He was mentally crushed. And the partying lifestyle he’d come to know as a player at Nottingham Forest continued until alcohol consumed his very life. At the age of 31, he passed away in the hospital, waiting for a liver transplant that never came.

The day before my husband and I travelled to London, the prevailing transfer gossip for Arsenal was that Eberchi Eze, then a creative player with Crystal Palace, was coming to Arsenal. It was a bit of a shock. Arsenal had pursued Eze earlier in the transfer window and then it suddenly went quiet as Arsenal completed a new contract with 18-year old Ethan Nwaneri. Nwaneri had been with the Arsenal academy since he was 8 years old, breaking into the top team on September 2022 when he was only 15 years old. Over the next couple of seasons he found himself more regularly in the action, possessing obvious talent. And, we hope, a great future with Arsenal. So the question was, had all the links to Eze just been a bargaining chip? It seemed that way. And more recently, gossip had held that Eze would almost certainly be going to our arch rivals, Tottenham. There were just a few wrinkles to work out.

As a youth player, Eze had been in the Arsenal Academy but had been cut from the squad at the age of 13. It was a blow not just to him but to his whole family who had been big Arsenal fans. And the blows didn’t stop there. As a youth player Eze was later cut from Fulham, Reading, and even Millwall. But he didn’t give up. Following a trial with Queens Park Rangers he signed a professional contract with QPR in 2016 when he was 18.

Things started just OK at QPR. He got one start the first season and was promptly injured. The next season he was loaned out to a lower division team where he appeared fairly regularly and did quite well. In his third season with QPR he started featuring regularly and becoming more and more important to the team. In 2020, he was sold to Crystal Palace. The important growth that had started at QPR kicked into high gear and kept leveling up. I remember him being a handful when Arsenal played Crystal Palace.

When early transfer rumors had Eze coming to Arsenal, the Arsenal fan based seemed united behind the value he could offer. (That is not always true. When Arsenal fans learned that Chelsea’s Noni Madueke was coming to Arsenal, many revolted. Madueke had to turn off his social media accounts because people were so evil.) So it was a little depressing to learn mid week before our trip that Eze was probably going to Tottenham. At 27, even though he was arguably a late bloomer, that move would probably be his last big one. Even if he could be acquired from Tottenham at a later date, the Tottenham mark would be upon him.

But Tottenham are notoriously fussy in their negotiations and as they dragged out without being finalized, it seemed that Eze felt he had one last ditch effort to make to try to return to the club that cut him more years ago than he had lived by the time he’d been cut. He called Arsenal manager Mikel Arteta. The day he called happened to have been just after Kai Havertz experienced a new injury. Did the next actions have to do with that or something else? Maybe we will learn someday. But Arsenal’s Board met that day and Arsenal’s sporting director got busy. Rumors started again that he might be coming to Arsenal.

When my husband and I arrived at the Arsenal match against Leeds, we were quickly shooed to our seats for a big announcement. And out of the tunnel came our newest player in jeans and his new #10 jersey, Eberchi Eze. The deal had been done in 48 hours after the phone call to Arteta.

What a joyous homecoming that was. We fans were excited and cheering and you could tell Eze felt moved. A prayer by his mother on the day he’d been cut had finally been answered in the affirmative. A week later, our manager Mikel Arteta commented in his press conference that he’s found in the week that Eze’s been practicing that he has “a special aura.” That aura was evident on the night.

The story of Jason Kaminsky and the story of Eberechi Eze came heavily into my consciousness in the same week and I think it’s important to be careful of the lessons of these stories. They are probably related by only a few things. Both young men were gifted footballers. Both probably had a special aura. Both had early setbacks. I reckon both of their mothers prayed over their lives. But only for one is the ending final, not a good one. And only for one is there an upswing in life’s middle.

This is a very weird and unnatural life, to play a sport that captivates fans to the point their week is a little ruined when the team plays badly and made happy when the team plays well. When as a player you are a hero in one moment and a goat (not the good kind) in another. Also, let’s face it: not only sports figures have bad days, lost confidence, fair and unfair challenges. Who turn to artificial means to dull their senses, some of whom may dull them to their very deaths. Whose prayers are not answered or at least not answered in the way they would like.

Cheerful thoughts.

For the Leeds match it was a ridiculously feel-good day. I was sitting in the Club section on the Northeast side facing the penalty area. For Club People, my compatriots were pretty enthusiastic. My sense while at the Emirates and experiencing the match in real time was that we didn’t play all that well, struggling to break down a newly promoted team we should have been able to handle easily. A breakthrough finally came about 35 minutes in when Arsenal had a corner kick.

Yes, another goal scored on a corner kick.

Declan Rice put up a lovely ball and Jurrien Timber got his head to it. After the time the Arsenal fans started to make early to the beer lines in the concourse for halftime, Timber passed a perfect ball to Bukayo Saka, just in the space where Saka can do the most damage. He did do that damage. It was 2-0 at halftime.

It occurs to me that the people who got to the beer early were probably in their seats by the time the game re-started, but those who waited were probably still finishing their beer in the concourse when new guy Viktor Gyokeres managed to score his first Premier League goal. It was the kind of goal he has a history of scoring, where half the work is physical, opening a space where none exists, and half is him placing the ball perfectly in the tiny space available.

The fourth goal was a funny one. Yes, another corner kick, but one that bobbled around in the penalty area with a lot of missed and sloppy kicks by both teams until Jurrien Timber took charge and looped it into the goal. There was nothing pretty about it but it counted.

I know very little about Timber’s narrative. I’m sure he’s faced plenty of challenges that he’s had to overcome. What I know of him is that he performs game in and game out and had a seriously impactful day against Leeds.

The day was capped off by an appearance by our latest 15-year old wunderkind, Max Dowman. Dowman made several appearances in the pre-season and every Arsenal fan is thrilled about what this player may produce in the future for Arsenal. He is a marvelous dribbler and all through the preseason he gave defenders fits. In the Leeds match he managed in added time to dribble dangerously into the box where he was marginally fouled. The referee pointed to the spot and the penalty was taken by Gyokeres. He hit it so hard and so perfectly you didn’t have time to be nervous.

Max Dowman is an obviously talented teenager. So many potential obstacles ahead of him. I hope Arsenal is helping to equip him to handle them.

The game ended 5-0.

The biggest downside of the day was that our terrible injury record of last season has followed us into this season. In the Leeds match, our captain and midfielder Martin Odegaard was injured early in the match and had to be replaced with Ethan Nwaneri. Very worrisome, but Ethan did a fine job stepping in. Early in the second half we lost Bukayo Saka to a hamstring strain. Fortunately, we could shift Noni Madueke from the left to the right, where he plays better anyway. Considering how mad some Arsenal fans were when he was bought this summer, I hope they noticed that Madueke had a perfectly good day.

We left the stadium in good cheer, with the fans chanting the earworm that is the Gyokeres song. Supposedly there is chant for Jurien Timber, but I’ve never heard it. He deserved a good chant on the day.

A very happy home opener for the season. You could say it, too, had a special aura.